Today had CIP at Anchorvale there. Met Xaverie, Syahidah, Xin Yee and Clare at compass. Walked to blk 324 together. Actually I was kinda late. Oops! Kays reach there got into the grps. Was with Xaverie, Ammar, Eugene, Farhan, Shu Fang, Sophie, Dan and FuFu. Subgrp with Ammar, Eugene and Farhan. At first was pretty awkward. Then ltr ok le. Can go alone also. Eugene had strategy. Nickname lift strategy. We put the newspapers in the lift and hold it at every floor. We collected more than some grps. Then we had to pack some of them. Then got slapped by Ammar halfway making fun of him. Sigh… Even my dad neva slap me! Ammar my daddy le. Then who my mummy??? S_ _ _ _ _ _ _?? Lol. No offence. Then went compass. Go toilet first. Then ms neo came! WTH is she doing there???!!! All the way keep bumping into her. Went to eat. There one idiotic guy came to ask and said ‘ If you study in Seng Kang Sec, I studied in Long Kang Sec. If you study in Mee Toh school, I study in Mee siam school.’ We just stared at him. Actually I laughed cause I didn’t get what he meant. Then after a few seconds I understood. Then he came again. This time he said’ Which school always miss goal wan? Punggol Sec.” Pon – goal. Understand?? I laughed again. Then realise this guy was trying to be funny. Sigh….. Retarded fellow….. Then go action city, popular, then Xaverie and clare go missing. Found them. But they wanted to go home. So me, Syahidah, Rahdiyah and Xin Yee went library slacked. Saw Syahidah sis. She taller than Syahidah btw. Lol. Slacked for slightly more than an hour before one stupid librarian came to piss us off. So syahidah and Rahdiyah left first while me and Xin Yee went to get book. We good gals mah. Lol. On LRT saw shiv.

Feel so damn pissed when i think of everything. It just happened like that. And i was like a bloody retard. I din knoe. Why?? I just didnt expect it. seriously. I feel like killing myself. How could i let it happen. Dun ask me what. But something happened. Now this blog has become my imagination. Not a actual account of events. They WILL pay for it. I swear. But what did they do. It was not their fault what. So who shall i blamed? I am tired of everything. Why me?? Just so damn confused. i want to talk. But i cant. Who bothers to listen also. Even if they listen, what will they think? I am not what everyone thinks i am. And that is my first confrontation. Not ordinary like you people. dun ask why. I cant tell anyone. Cant write it out also. I have got seriously nothing left. So what if you got money and stuff?? Now they are useless....

NDP was great but tiring today. Have to report at 6.15 am in the morning. So I got up at like about 4.30 plus. Looked out at the window, nobody from the next block on the light. Then bathed and got changed. Then asked my mum to bun up my hair for me. Man!! I think she thought my hair was a pin stand!! She used over 10 pins. Still some hair was flying… sigh… Took LRT. Alone. When the skies are still dark. A young pretty girl. Nobody cares! When reached there IMMEDIETELY go and changed. Then UI time my buttons were wrong. So tried to adjust but was to tight. Then some fucking bastard kept hurrying me. I felt like grabbing some golf ball to stuff into his mouth! Morning got pissed already. Eh good enough I never, kays forget it. Then went class take temperature. Was told that could not sit. But NCOs say sit but make sure don’t dirty Uni. So heck care I sit. Then parade, last minute changes to the positions. My 'wonderful' junior dropped my thermometer into the drain. Yoges laughed. Felt like giving him and the juniour one tight slap.Then parade started. WOOOhoooo!!! Tried very hard not laugh cos of some ppl and to look SMART!! Then finish go change and go hall. Talk a lot of crap to ppl wif crap in their brain. Lol. No offence. The person on my RIGHT btw. I was sort of impressed wif e3 performance. They did the jumpstlye. Then after concert go do maths test. Confirm fail. Never study a thing. I go there blur blur. Last min revision does not help that much. Then went dont know where with Syahidah, Xin Yee and Xaverie to give out flyers. There we saw Ming Rong, FuFu, and Farhan. Some ppl go throw the flyers just after we put them. Not in their house but on their corridor. You think ur mother buy the place ah????!!! was pissed for the second time.Then did something very naughty. Only Syahidah, Xaverie, Xin Yee and maybe Fufu know what. Dont tell hor. let the ass go find out himself.Then we went to buy present for my ' grandma'. Lol. No offence. Come back was so tired. Lied down on the sofa. The next min, i was asleep. without even bathing!!! EEEwww!!! Even i am so disgusted with myself. Wake up cannot walk. Weak. Sigh...

Life sucks. At least for me. I just want to cry. And after that sleep. Everything that should not have happened is happening. Why??? There is no one to answer my question. I am confused. I just want to sleep.